Friends

I absolutely love the show friends! I am utterly obsessed with it. This year alone I have watched the whole of the series twice this year! When I was pregnant with my son I loved curling up with partner to watch endless amounts of episodes. Every time he traveled to us he’d just say “friends” and it was perfect. I must admit if you watch too many episodes it does get a little bit repetitive. Friends taught me a lot; I think a lot of people would benefit from watching them.

My favourite character has to be Phoebe simply because she’s so free spirited and doesn’t care about what people think. I’m hoping to keep heading towards her personality but I don’t want to change my personality at all. I think my favourite episode is the one where Monica and Chandler bring home the twins! Joe’s face is just priceless. When I was younger I used to like the episode where they have thanksgiving and the Gellers get really competitive in a football game. 

Here’s some facts! No idea if they’re true can’t always trust the internet. 

1. The role of Ross was written for David Schwimmer.
2. The opening credits were shot at Warner Bros. studio, not in New York.
3. Lisa Kudrow hated playing guitar at first.
4. Bruce Willis appeared on the show for free after losing a bet to Perry.

I hope you enjoyed! 

Love, Becky. 

13 reasons why by Jay Asher

13 Reasons Why Book Review

So I started watching the series originally but since moving we don’t have internet so watching the series has come to a halt. I saw this book in Sainsbury’s and I was just like let’s do this! Unfortunately for me it was the horrible movie cover! Never mind it’s still got the same contents. I obviously knew what this book was about since starting the series. I would advice if you are feeling sucidal, very low mood please do not read this book; I was in an okay place and it really affected me because it obviously talks about hard topics. The book is very eye opening and I did enjoy the way Jay Asher wrote it. I would keep an open mind, I didn’t see who was going to be number 13 and I thought it’d be a person of great significance. Anyway I’d probably rate the book 4.5 out of 5 stars. 

Continued (spoilers)

So we start off with meeting Clay who is the main character apart from Hannah. He’s got the set of tapes from Hannah about why she committed suicide. There are obviously 13 people who are involved however one (Clay) isn’t supposed to be on the list. He simply is on here because Hannah was sorry and they both loved each other or had a crush. Throughout the whole book you get to see how awful her life was in school and how one little thing can trigger off a lot of chain reactions. The ending was good but I was a little sad the story ended I wanted to know what happened with Clay because he was such a genuine friend. 

The book teaches you about the butterfly effect. I think a lot of people will connect with this story because it’s all about bullying and what it can lead to. There’s a lot about things like you don’t know what’s going on in someone else’s life and not everything you hear is exactly true. I know a lot of people who’ve been through this and it saddens me that still in this day and age bullies get away with it when someone tries or takes their own life. 

Hannah was such a likeable character she seemed so fitting for Clay and I just wish it didn’t have to end bad for Hannah. Everyone’s life is affected by the suicide in different ways wether it be directly, because of the tapes or because of the guilt of the last thing they said to Hannah. 

The book is definitely worth a read and if you haven’t yet get to it! I think it took me 4/5 days to get through as it’s super short. The writing is pretty basic which makes it easy to read. 

I hope you enjoyed this book, see you all soon. 

Love, Becky. 

Everything, Everything Nicola Yoon

Everything Everything Book Review

So I picked this book up out of the blue because it was short and I heard a lot about it from Bookstagram. I also needed to up my Amazon order to £20.00 for free delivery lol. Anyway I went into the story knowing that it was about a girl who was allerigic to everything. I can't honestly remember what it's actually called. The story begins where we learn a little bit of background about Maddy, her mum and Carla; it's a very sheltered life she lives. When Olly walks into her life things turn upside down (literally). I think a lot of people would relate to Maddy because her love of books. In my opinion a lot of people with anxiety will relate to her because she presents feelings I certainly related to. I must admit the ending is quite a let down but the overall book definitely makes up for it.

Review with spoilers below picture:

So Maddy is obviously told she is allergic to everything in the outside world. We obviously know that this is not true towards the end. The way Nicola Yoon finished this book felt a little abrupt but satisfied my needs for the end.
Maddy first sees Olly and he kind of reminds me of Tarzan with all the climbing about. He seems like a sweet guy in this book and he honestly is. He did make a good impression on me because he wasn't your average sweet talking jock.
I loved Carla she was just perfect, I think that was her name, I am so bad at remembering things but I'm talking about the first nurse. She was so down to earth it was lovely to read her story. She was lovely to Maddy. I didn't like her mum one bit I knew from the start something wasn't right with her. I think she obviously had PTSD from the accident that killed her husband and her son.

The characters were really well rounded and the story just had that good feeling. I do wish we spent more time in the outside world with Maddy and Olly I think their relationship would really blossom. Anyway the book makes you happy at the end when she escapes I bet it would have been amazing seeing all the things like beeches, ice cream, Eiffel tower etc.

Love, Becky.

Mental Health Awareness

On Tuesday 10th October it was Mental Health Awarness and if you've followed me for a long time then you'll know I'm all for sharing your feelings and raising awareness. In my day to day life I come across all different people with and without mental health "problems". I hate that word is there another way to put it? Mental health awesomeness let's go with that one. Some people are probably like I'm sick of hearing about mental health but until we get treated seriously and people stop judging it will be talked about forever!!! Mwahahaha!

Anyway my journey has been absolute hell and I've yet to be diagnosed with a name of my issue. But the main thing for me is I'm living my life as much as I can even when I have really crappy days. 

I'm one of those people that feels the need to help others no matter how many times they shoot me down or use me. Some people really do take advantage of a good heart. But quickly moving on back to the matter at hand I watched a short film where a man had been undiagnosed bipolar, tried to take his life and failed; he described this regret he had just as his hands left the bridge he jumped off. He made a very good point that even attempting to leave this world impacts a lot of people. If I can find the link I will put it here. 

I love talking to you guys online and sharing your journeys whether it's the road to recovery, relapse or just discovering it's okay not to be okay. If I feel I make a difference to just to one person I feel better in myself. Sometimes I do have to give up on some people because I get sucked in a little too much and that effects my mental health and I know it sounds selfish to some people but you've got to look after number 1 before you can help others. I sound a little contradicting but hay hoe. 

Love, Becky. 

Lost In A Book by Jennifer Donnelly

Lost In A Book review 

Well it's been a very very long time for me to do a book review and I'm so glad I can finally do one. As you know I'm a new mum so reading is either impossible or I fall asleep before I get to the next page. So anyway I saw this book in Sainsbury's and thought you know what? It sounds amazing the book cover looks brilliant why not. I must admit it took me a whole two months to read this book but it was such an amazing journey I was never bored. The characters are great you really see them all. I think overall I would rate it 4.5 stars out of 5 and it's very enjoyable. 

More detailed review (spoilers) 

So I went into this book knowing one thing it was in the same universe/ place as Beauty And The Beast. It is my favourite Disney movie so you can guarantee I wanted to read this book. 

We start off with all the lovable character we know such as Mrs Potts, chip, belle and the beast. It begins at the part where belle has no idea she loves the beast and the beast gives her his library. There was one problem with this storyline they made belle out to be a sheltered reader when in fact the true belle loved spending time with Chip and the other servants. When we enter Nevermore it seems completely normal. But the plot gets spoiled very early on when the queen she literally tells the reader what's going to happen. Obviously the ending isn't given away and I did think it was anticlimactic. 

We get to see a different side of belle she is made quite selfish at times. The beast is his normal self but sometimes came across very friendly which was confusing sometimes but it was nice. The rest of the characters were good but not great. 

I would recommend this to people who'll like beauty and the beast; if you don't mind little changes you will like it. I think the book is more aimed at the younger generation just simply because it's easy to read and enjoy. I hope you enjoyed my quick review! I loved the fact I was able to read this book with my little boy around I felt a little bit of normality. 

Love, Becky. 

Panic attacks

#Truthful Mother 

I was in town on a normal day this weekend and felt brilliant. I had my best dress on, my make up looked great and my hair was looking brilliant. Dave constantly complimented me. We met with his mum and everything was brilliant until it turned 12pm. I started feeling so close to people, it was too loud and I had to get out of there. My palms sweaty, breathing heavy, vision blurry and heart racing. Panic attack. 

I basically want to show my best ways of calming down because having anxiety and panic attacks with a baby is really hard. 

Ways I get through it: 

1. Watch your favourite program to distract yourself. I either go with The Big Bang Theory or Friends. I also think it's good to watch movies you absolutely adore, Mama Mia and The Fault In Our Stars are my go to. 
2. Busy yourself with cleaning; cleaning your house or parents house can be very therapeutic and calming. If you chose something where your sorting you can talk to yourself about what's going to go where. 
3. Go on social media; sometimes this may not help as some people don't have the right kind of people online. You need to follow inspiration pages or things that interest you. 
4. Jump in the shower; when it gets too much for me I can normally jump in the shower to distract myself. My partner normally comes in with me to talk about things that worry me and that combination soothes me. 

As a full time mum it can be very hard coping with panic attacks and a small baby; thankfully for me I am on the right medication and I'm getting so much better. I do ask for help if it gets too much but it can be so scary especially when someone needs you 24/7. I try to write down all my feelings and keep my life as stress free as possible which is difficult since I'm moving out soon. Anyway wish me luck! If anyone has any other ways of calming down let me know because I'd love to know. 

Love, Becky. 

Cold Tea, Unread Books And Giggles

#truthful mother 

Alfie's fast asleep, time for tea. I creep out the room downstairs with the baby monitor. I reach the cold tiles in the kitchen heading towards the kettle. I fill it up, boil it. Grabbing my favourite mug with my Alfie moo on the front. My decaf tea in, 2 sugars and a splash of milk. (Side note I'm on decaf because it reduces my anxiety massively). I take the monitor and my fresh brew into the living room turn on the television to catch up on coronation street. 10 minutes in the monitor cackles and boom Alfie's awake. I go upstairs get Alfie out of bed and bring him down. I entertain for hours before his feed time... 

*2 hours later*

Looks at the coffee table at my nice freezing cold tea. 

I'm getting used to having lukewarm tea but I can't drink it cold - bleh! It's like babies know when your about to enjoy yourself. It's the exact same when I try and read my book. I get him down in the day grab my book and boom he's awake again, such a light sleeper. I'd try and read before bed but I'm so tired, I'm not the only one right? 

This might be the downer of being a new parent but the best thing that makes it so much worthwhile is the giggle fits and beautiful smiles you get from them. Alfie melts my heart when he giggles at something I do or even at himself. His favourite thing is doing the twist dance gets him howling! There are loads of down points but so much more good points and there the ones you want to celebrate . 

Until next time fellow bookworms and mummies and daddies! Keep going. 

Love, Becky.